I had a great idea to give you all a tour of my Mom Cave this month.
But God had other ideas.
It’s not fit for a tour. It’s crowded and chaotic and messy right now — a perfect reflection of my heart and mind. These last weeks of school have left me drained and wounded and utterly overwhelmed by how far “behind” I feel. Stacks of permission forms for upcoming mission trips, bills waiting to be paid, and cards waiting to be sent. Bins of half-finished craft projects, bags of leftovers from my classroom.
It’s a wonder I can think straight as I sit at my desk. It’s enough to send me into a tail spin.
And so I turn to Him.
He’s been growing me this past year. I’ve been called into uncomfortable places over and over again. More has been asked of me than ever before. And I’ve listened. And worked. And supported and prayed and taught and been taught and ministered and ADministered whenever and wherever needed. It’s been important work that’s required a daily prayer of Let me be Your hands and feet, Lord. Let me glorify YOU in all I say and do.
And it’s been important work that’s left my home in disarray and me with no energy to fix it.
But He whispers to me: It’s all okay.
Because I need Him. And He’s near.
“There’s something powerful in realizing and acknowledging complete dependence on Him…if it were easy, I wouldn’t need God…If I made it happen nice and neatly, I would get the glory, not Him. ” Kristen Welch, Rhinestone Jesus.
I’ve realized God wants us when things are a big mess. He wants us in the here and the now, whatever that looks like. When we feel like we’re prepared and when we know that we’re not. When our house is organized and spic and span and when it looks like a bomb went off and there’s crushed Cheerios on the floor. When you feel like you’re on top of things and when you feel like everything’s on top of you.
“Your weakness is the perfect place for God’s glory. Instead of seeing your weakness as an “I can’t,” see it as a “He can.”† That’s why God uses inadequate people — so He is glorified instead of us.” Kristen Welch, Rhinestone Jesus.
And so this holiday weekend, instead of worrying about the stacks and piles and disarray, I will keep my eyes on Him, He whose power is made perfect in my inadequacy. And I will keep praying the prayer of Let me be your hands and feet, Lord. Let me glorify You in all I say and do.† Amen.
Wishing you all a blessed and messy (in all the right ways) Memorial Day weekend.
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